I was inspired by you when
you said you were spiritual
I admire that in you
I can taste the residual
I haven’t been able to
hold onto that trait
since my brother died
12 years later and I missed my pagan dreaming
Flirting with spirits and concepts of destiny
Metaphysics, Superstrings, Manifestation
A big breathing heart no fears or damnation
You seemed so brave just owning it outright
No hangups or burdens just perceived love and light
In this knowing you embodied comfort and peace
Calm and tender, a sweet masterpiece
You were doting on me so much I was crushing
Went on a limb with a text that ended up pushing you
Over some ledge, my intentions misread
Intentions of connection, of minds intertwined
Like our bodies in bed, yours overlapping mine
And like that you were gone as I fell from the cliff
From smitten kitten to unanchored, adrift
A violent wave, an outcry of pain
Renewing a past I can’t relive again
My attempts at peace discarded and shamed
You seem to have already forgotten my name
Little you know of my empathic soul
How I’d howl with you until you were comfortable
But you hide in your den and abandon me cold
Until I have no choice but letting you go
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